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*Important note: this article is not meant to be therapy, or to replace therapy with a skilled and qualified person, which is essential in healing from severe trauma. These are only the opinions of a survivor. Trigger warning: mentions cult abuse, dissociation, and trauma*
In order to survive ritual abuse, a child will often learn to dissociate, and dissociate heavily. The child has undergone some of the most horrific abuse humanly imaginable, and most find a way to cope. One of the ways that is encouraged in certain groups, such as the Illuminati, is to create an elaborate defensive system. In psychological terms, the child fragments, then fragments again. Eventually, the child has polyfragmented.
What is polyfragmentation? The term comes from the root poly, meaning many, and fragments. In complex polyfragmenatation, the survivor will have not only alter systems, but hundreds or even thousands of fragments, isolated parts of their mind created to do a job, and do it well and unthinkingly. Often the job is one that would be abhorrent to the main personality or presenting system. The further away from core beliefs, the greater usually the dissociation and fragmentation that must occur. In other words, a LOT of trauma has to happen to make a person do something that they really don’t want to do. And the person has to feel very far away from themselves as well when doing it. The cult will purposely try to create a polyfragmented system for this very reason. The person is more dissociated from themselves, and is often easier for them to control.
How are polyfragmented systems structured? These are individual, and will vary from not only person to person, but also with the group the person belonged to, the trainers, the abilities of the child, and tasks involved that the child must do. There is no “cookie cutter approach” in most cults to creating polyfragmented systems, but there are certain characteristics that are common.
What might a polyfragmented system look like? I will share some based on my memories as a trainer in this group, plus insights from my own healing process.
1. Protectors: these are parts that were created to do the jobs that had to be done, and saved the life of the young child. Cult protectors had to look mean and scary, like the child’s perpetrators. They also become perpetrators when the child grows into an adult, since they have no choice. They can be ruthless, angry, or may believe that they are demons. Some growl, some hiss, some believe that they are powerful animals. And all were a little child who was asked to do the unthinkable, forced to act in ways that he or she didn’t want to. They laugh at vulnerability, and trust no one. And with good reason, based upon their experiences in the cult. With therapy and time, they can also help keep the person safe from their perpetrators, as these parts will “kick butt” if they feel threatened.
2. Intellectuals: the cult WANTS intellectual alters who can observe, go between systems, learn information quickly and download it to outsiders. These might be recorders, computers, scholars. They may know several languages, and versed in different philosophies. Brilliant, cognitive, they often believe that they can outwit those around them, including therapists. But they also know much of the life history that the others don’t, since they rarely have strong feelings. These parts can “read the life history” without a tear or emotion. When they are out, the person appears “flat” to say the least, in psychological terms.
3. Denial people: these are intellectual, and are created to deny that anything bad ever happened. Life was wonderful, the parents perfect and loving, and the suicidality and PTSD symptoms are just strange artifacts without “any reason,” according to these parts. A person can have a full blown abreaction, and five minutes later, a denier will come out and say it was all “made up.” They are often afraid of punishment if the person remembers, and have severe trauma motivating them.
4. Controllers/head honchos/”top dogs”: these are the system leaders. They know what is going on at all times in their system. In a military system, it might be a general, in a protector system, the most powerful protector; in a metals system, the platinums, or in a jewel system, the highest jewels, such as diamond, ruby, or emerald. Usually there are several leaders in a system that share the responsibility. They can also become invaluable helpers over time if they choose to give up cult loyalty.
5. Child alters: these want praise from the adult leaders, and often come out for rewards, or sweets. They will report on others inside unless they can learn that it is safe to NOT do so, since they are motivated both by fear of punishment, and wanting praise from those above them. They are also often the “heart” of a polyfragmented system, and can feel love, joy, or fear and trembling. Often, they want hugs and to be told that they are “okay”.
6. Punishers: why wait for an outside person to punish you if you can create someone inside to do it first? Children will often identify heavily with their perpetrators, and if the punishment is severe and frequent, they will internalize the perpetrator to try and keep themselves “in line” and avoid punishment externally. The cult will capitalize on this, and often trainers will leave as their “calling card” an alter named after themselves. This one will be an internal trainer, or punisher, or enforcer. Their job is to keep things in line, and will often try to sabotage therapy. They are often fearful of external punishment if they don’t do their job. Internal punishers will also activate self punishment sequences inside (such as flood programming/ suicide programming, or other self harm sequences) if the person begins breaking away from the cult and the old rules. These parts may take time to conivince that they can change their old way of doing things, since they were often accountable to the outside handler/trainer if things weren’t kept in line.
7. Feeling alters: the feelings were overwhelming and infinitely traumatizing in childhood. It threatened the child’s survival and sanity. The solution? Parcel them out over several internal parts and/or fragments. Divide the feeling up so that it feels more manageable. Feeling alters often get locked away inside, and when they come out in therapy, the feeling may hit “full force” at first. A child alter may come out screaming, or terror stricken, or wailing in uncontrollable grief and pain, until they are grounded in the here and now. Often, feelings were heavily punished in the cult, so it was psychologically necessary to bury them deeply within the psyche in order to survive. These parts may be very separated from the parts that know what happened to cause the feelings in a highly fragmeneted system, so that the feelings seem to come out of nowhere, without any cause. With time and healing, they can hook up with the intellectuals inside who observed, and other parts who went through the same trauma, giving meaning to the feelings and helping to resolve them.
8. Internal councils: most cults have leadership councils of some sort. And many people internalize them inside. It’s another example of internalizing perpetrators, and these have a vested interest in “keeping things in line” until they realize that they can leave the cult and be safe. Then, they can become an immense strength for healing. A personal may have a local leadership council internalized, or spiritual councils that represent outside people, such as an internal druidic council or group of ascended masters that help run things inside.
9. Sexual alters: created to handle the overwhelming trauma of early childhood sexual abuse, they took the feelings it was too painful for a young child to understand. Some had to learn to enjoy the abuse, or pretend to, and were heavily rewarded for this response.
10. Amnesic alters: these are known as the “front”, the “clueless ones”, “those who don’t know anything”, etc. These have the job of not remembering. Otherwise, as a child, they were heavily punished. Usually, they are very glad to not remember anything, and the other parts who were abused at times envy them or dislike their “protected life history.” This can create a lot of intrasystem hostility or warfare, until the amnesic parts begin accepting that abuse did occur. Reminding abused parts that the amnesia saved the child’s (and their life) helped my system with this.
11. The workers: these do the jobs of daily life, and usually are part of the presenting systems. These take care of the house, got married, take care of the children, and may hold a highly responsible job as well. These are the competent parts created that hide the fact that the person has undergone a lifetime of traumatic abuse and degradation. These parts can also be a great strength, as they share that life can be good with other more traumatized parts inside.
12. Hosts: there may be a “day host” (see presenters), a “night host” for the cult, or hosts for various systems or times in the person’s life. Occasionally, the survivor of severe generational cult abuse may find to their dismay that a greater portion of their life was invested in and given to cult activities than day ones, and the “night host” is stronger than the “day host”! This happened to me. Fortunately, my “night host” was the one who left the cult, so she had plenty of strength and pull to give to staying safe and away from the group. I also had a “host” that had handled the summers spent in Europe, during those times in childhood, and a “hidden host” who never fully presented to protect herself from others (she manipulated the presenters to sit in front of her, telling them what to do). Each person’s system will handle this task differently. In general, the greater the trauma, the greater the distrust of outside people, and the more likely that the host will be a facade, or heavily protected.
13. Core splits: can be created from severe and psychologically threatening very early childhood trauma. This used to be done intentionally by some cult groups to create larger and more dissociated systems.
14. The core: this is the original child, the one who created all of the others inside. The child’s systems will depend upon the traumas and the creativity of the original child, as well as her need to protect herself from the abuse of others that might have destroyed her. In some systems, the core will be very young, or an infant, if the abuse was extremely early and severe. Core issues surrounding her will usually involve parents or parental figures who caused severe trauma. This might include abandonment, torture, or other forms of cruelty to a young child.
15. Function codes, access codes, halt codes, system codes: these are fragments that might be put in to do certain jobs, and are created to only do that job when called out by triggers such as letters, numbers, phrases, or other auditory stimuli. These are created with deep trauma and are very intentionally done by perpetrators.
16. Spiritual parts: these may have a variety of beliefs that cover different spiritualities internally. There may be one over-riding spiritual belief for the system, or several. For example, a spiritual system created by the cult may include aspects of Luciferianism, druidism, Temple of Set teachings, Ancient Babylonian mystery religions, etc. The host or presenters may have a completely conflicting religious belief system, and there may be hostility between the parts that hold opposing beliefs. In my own life, my presenters were strong Christians, and this gave the stability and comfort needed to bring healing to the parts inside. It also opened the way to begin forgiveness, one of the most difficult and important tasks in the healing process.
This has been an overview of just a few of the types of personalities that might be found in a complex polyfragmented system. It is important to be aware that each person is unique; that many people will have coped with trauma in their own way. This is not meant to say that every cult survivor has all of these personalities, but are one survivor’s opinion based upon her experiences and memories. My hope is that this article will help to educate others about this issue.
Copyright 2000 – Svali
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“You know you’re making all of this up, it isn’t true. I certainly don’t remember any of the things you are telling me.” The speaker was my mother, two years ago, and she was telling me in no uncertain terms that she did not believe me. Her amnesia is intact and strong, protecting her. I had confronted her about the fact that she and I had spent a lifetime in the cult, and that I loved her and wanted her to get out. I had told her specific names of people we both knew in this phone call, the first time I had spoken with her in a year. “Mom, you’re dissociative, that’s why you don’t remember,” I told her. “No I’m not, nothing happened”, she maintained. I decided to blast at her denial a little. She knew that I had never studied or heard German consciously in the daytime, although she had spoken it to me at night since I was very young. She did not consciously know or understand it at all. “Then why can I speak German now that I’ve integrated with my back people?” I asked her, in German. “I’ve never studied it, you know that, or heard it. I studied Spanish and Latin for my languages in school.” There was a pause. “Maybe you’re psychic, and learned it telepathically,” she answered. My mother had to maintain her denial, even then, and come up with some explanation for the unexplainable. But how did she understand my question, which was in German, to her?
My son is integrating quickly now. He had almost 100 inside people when he first came to live with me two and a half years ago at the age of 10 (the Illuminati fragment their children heavily from infancy on), and now he has only about 15. Lately, he has told me the real David, the core child, has been coming out and experiencing life. I am thankful to God that he is young enough that he could heal, and try not to feel jealous that it has been easier and faster for him than for me. His therapist told me why it is easier for him the other day: ”Your son feels safe now, and he has not one, but two parents validating him and saying they believe him when he comes to them. This means he doesn’t have to spend a lifetime overcoming parental denial, and that’s one reason he is healing so fast.”
I have never, ever told my son that he is making it up when he deals with memories. I pray with him, and ask God to heal the memories, and to bring security to my son, and to fill the painful areas with the knowledge of His love and mercy. I pray for blessing on both of my children. And God has been faithful to answer. My son no longer nightmares at night, has made good friends at school, is active in sports, has better grades than 2 years ago, and tells me he is happy (the last is the most important to me).
I believe that denial is a large barrier to healing. Often, when a survivor begins to recover memories, they will go to family members for validation, or to confront them. They are also frequently faced with invalidation, denial, or even verbal abuse from those same family members, who need to maintain their own denial to protect themselves from facing painful truths. “You’re crazy”, “You’re sick”, “You have a sick imagination,” “How can you make these things up,” “You need help”, and more cruel phrases are thrown at the person whose amnesia is beginning to break, from those who want them to maintain it. After all, if ONE person starts remembering, then OTHERS might, and the others in the family system might not be psychologically strong or healthy enough to remember. I think one of the saddest realities is that it takes more psychological integrity, honesty, and truth-seeking to remember something as painful as ritual abuse, yet the person who is remembering is told the opposite by family members unwilling to face their own pain.
The disapproval of family members is extremely painful, and is enough to cause some to doubt the reality of their own memories. “Maybe I am making this up, otherwise why don’t THEY remember?” the survivor thinks. Or, “I love my parents/siblings/cousins and I don’t want to hurt them. What if they’re right?” When memories are first recovered, they often come in flashes that last a second or two, are vague, and may seem unreal to the person remembering. Add the messages from others that is loud and clear: It is NOT okay to remember, and the survivor may shut down.
Denial may also come from within. It is a basic protective mechanism when a person is confronted with pain; how often do we CONSCIOUSLY deny our own faults (“It wasn’t my fault, I was having a bad day, and everyone was against me”) to protect our self image. The more painful the blow to the self concept (since people desperately want to maintain an image of themselves as “okay), the greater the need to deny.
If events that a person went through destroyed their ability to accept themselves as a worthwhile human being (and ritual abuse does this to the maximum), then they will need to deny that it occurred in order to function in daily life. This is one reason why once the denial is let go of, functionality may temporarily falter in the survivor, as they process the horrendous truths of a childhood filled with pain. It is also a reason why denial can serve a protective function, and should be let go of slowly, carefully, with the help and support of a competent therapist. Some protective denial in the early stages can be good, as long as the person does not recontact cult members, since it allows the memories to come forward slowly and in an amount that is easier to manage.
Denial may also be programmed in (denial programming). This is done from early childhood, when the child is taught methodically in a calculated manner to disbelieve what they are seeing in front of them, and to create alters who will deny, and punish severely if the person does not deny the ritual abuse. This may be linked to suicidal or flood programming as well.
I had an inside part who was known as “Forced Denial”, created when I was 2 ½ years old. Her only job was to ensure that I would deny that I had ever been abused, even when confronted with overwhelming evidence that it had happened (such as physical scars, court records that indicated abuse in early childhood, and validation from some family members.) I would go through a horrendous abreaction early in my healing process, after screaming, raging, and crying my eyes out from the pain, and then F.D. would come out and calmly announce, “Nothing happened, I am making this all up.” She believed she was protecting my life, since there was suicide programming that kicked in if she didn’t do her job, and well as violent protectors who would destroy her. She would be calm, but sweating heavily, as she denied, until the day she realized that her job was no longer needed, and that those who used to punish her (and me) no longer needed to act out.
Overcoming denial may mean overcoming a lifetime of training to deny, and the intense fear of punishment if the person doesn’t. Safety, no contact with cult members, and reasoning with these parts can all help the need to deny decrease.
Finally, denial may come from society. The survivor has it ground in from infancy by the cult that “No one will ever believe you, they will think you are crazy if you ever talk, and lock you up.” Our society today often looks the other way, or looks askance at the survivor. Groups such as the FMS were created to blitz the media with unfounded statements about memory retrieval, and to invalidate survivors who have the courage to speak out and say, “This is real, and it happens.” How many news stories are out there that make ritual abuse look as if it is a “modern hysteria” or attempt to denigrate therapists willing to work with and help survivors? I know that when I was in San Diego, leadership council was well aware of the power of the media, and the council had a saying, “Don’t attack your enemy, discredit him (in the media).” They found it much more effective, and reporters such as M. Sauer do an excellent job for them. I hope that he, and others that I knew in the group, will learn that they can get out.
The survivor who is able to overcome the denial of family, internal denial, and programmed denial, will still be met by blank looks, or worse, those who turn their backs on them, and say, “I don’t want to hear about this, “ or “I can’t hear about this.” Pastors will say this, social workers, CPS workers, and those whose comfort zone is crossed with the thought that ritual abuse really occurs. Those who tell the survivor, “I believe you”, at times may seem far and few between, and I applaud their willingness to look at realities which often make us feel uncomfortable. No one WANTS to think that human beings can do this to one another, or that such horrific abuse is possible.
I am here to say loud and clear that ritual abuse occurs. It is real. It is not made up. The people who disclose their abuse are not crazy, they are not liars, they are not looking for attention or sympathy. They are some of the most courageous, intelligent, and psychologically honest people that I have ever known in my life, and many are facing some of the most tremendous emotional pain possible by the grace of God, and surviving it. My one hope is that someday, soon, our society will wake up and come out of its own denial, and be willing to help take action on behalf of those that have survived, and are working desperately to escape the reach of the cult and those associated with it. May God bless each person who takes the steps to leave and to walk in the truth and freedom, and to fight against a great evil in our land (and around the world).
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*Important note: this article is not meant to be therapy, or to replace therapy with a skilled and qualified person, which is essential in healing from severe trauma. These are only the opinions of a survivor. Trigger warning: mentions cult abuse, dissociation, and trauma*
Complex polyfragmentation: a coping mechanism for the survivor
In order to survive ritual abuse, a child will often learn to dissociate, and dissociate heavily. The child has undergone some of the most horrific abuse humanly imaginable, and most find a way to cope. One of the ways that is encouraged in certain groups, such as the Illuminati, is to create an elaborate defensive system. In psychological terms, the child fragments, then fragments again. Eventually, the child has polyfragmented.
What is polyfragmentation? The term comes from the root poly, meaning many, and fragments. In complex polyfragmenatation, the survivor will have not only alter systems, but hundreds or even thousands of fragments, isolated parts of their mind created to do a job, and do it well and unthinkingly. Often the job is one that would be abhorrent to the main personality or presenting system. The further away from core beliefs, the greater usually the dissociation and fragmentation that must occur. In other words, a LOT of trauma has to happen to make a person do something that they really don’t want to do. And the person has to feel very far away from themselves as well when doing it. The cult will purposely try to create a polyfragmented system for this very reason. The person is more dissociated from themselves, and is often easier for them to control.
How are polyfragmented systems structured? These are individual, and will vary from not only person to person, but also with the group the person belonged to, the trainers, the abilities of the child, and tasks involved that the child must do. There is no “cookie cutter approach” in most cults to creating polyfragmented systems, but there are certain characteristics that are common.
What might a polyfragmented system look like? I will share some based on my memories as a trainer in this group, plus insights from my own healing process.
1. Protectors: these are parts that were created to do the jobs that had to be done, and saved the life of the young child. Cult protectors had to look mean and scary, like the child’s perpetrators. They also become perpetrators when the child grows into an adult, since they have no choice. They can be ruthless, angry, or may believe that they are demons. Some growl, some hiss, some believe that they are powerful animals. And all were a little child who was asked to do the unthinkable, forced to act in ways that he or she didn’t want to. They laugh at vulnerability, and trust no one. And with good reason, based upon their experiences in the cult. With therapy and time, they can also help keep the person safe from their perpetrators, as these parts will “kick butt” if they feel threatened.
2. Intellectuals: the cult WANTS intellectual alters who can observe, go between systems, learn information quickly and download it to outsiders. These might be recorders, computers, scholars. They may know several languages, and versed in different philosophies. Brilliant, cognitive, they often believe that they can outwit those around them, including therapists. But they also know much of the life history that the others don’t, since they rarely have strong feelings. These parts can “read the life history” without a tear or emotion. When they are out, the person appears “flat” to say the least, in psychological terms.
3. Denial people: these are intellectual, and are created to deny that anything bad ever happened. Life was wonderful, the parents perfect and loving, and the suicidality and PTSD symptoms are just strange artifacts without “any reason,” according to these parts. A person can have a full blown abreaction, and five minutes later, a denier will come out and say it was all “made up.” They are often afraid of punishment if the person remembers, and have severe trauma motivating them.
4. Controllers/head honchos/”top dogs”: these are the system leaders. They know what is going on at all times in their system. In a military system, it might be a general, in a protector system, the most powerful protector; in a metals system, the platinums, or in a jewel system, the highest jewels, such as diamond, ruby, or emerald. Usually there are several leaders in a system that share the responsibility. They can also become invaluable helpers over time if they choose to give up cult loyalty.
5. Child alters: these want praise from the adult leaders, and often come out for rewards, or sweets. They will report on others inside unless they can learn that it is safe to NOT do so, since they are motivated both by fear of punishment, and wanting praise from those above them. They are also often the “heart” of a polyfragmented system, and can feel love, joy, or fear and trembling. Often, they want hugs and to be told that they are “okay”.
6. Punishers: why wait for an outside person to punish you if you can create someone inside to do it first? Children will often identify heavily with their perpetrators, and if the punishment is severe and frequent, they will internalize the perpetrator to try and keep themselves “in line” and avoid punishment externally. The cult will capitalize on this, and often trainers will leave as their “calling card” an alter named after themselves. This one will be an internal trainer, or punisher, or enforcer. Their job is to keep things in line, and will often try to sabotage therapy. They are often fearful of external punishment if they don’t do their job. Internal punishers will also activate self punishment sequences inside (such as flood programming/ suicide programming, or other self harm sequences) if the person begins breaking away from the cult and the old rules. These parts may take time to conivince that they can change their old way of doing things, since they were often accountable to the outside handler/trainer if things weren’t kept in line.
7. Feeling alters: the feelings were overwhelming and infinitely traumatizing in childhood. It threatened the child’s survival and sanity. The solution? Parcel them out over several internal parts and/or fragments. Divide the feeling up so that it feels more manageable. Feeling alters often get locked away inside, and when they come out in therapy, the feeling may hit “full force” at first. A child alter may come out screaming, or terror stricken, or wailing in uncontrollable grief and pain, until they are grounded in the here and now. Often, feelings were heavily punished in the cult, so it was psychologically necessary to bury them deeply within the psyche in order to survive. These parts may be very separated from the parts that know what happened to cause the feelings in a highly fragmeneted system, so that the feelings seem to come out of nowhere, without any cause. With time and healing, they can hook up with the intellectuals inside who observed, and other parts who went through the same trauma, giving meaning to the feelings and helping to resolve them.
8. Internal councils: most cults have leadership councils of some sort. And many people internalize them inside. It’s another example of internalizing perpetrators, and these have a vested interest in “keeping things in line” until they realize that they can leave the cult and be safe. Then, they can become an immense strength for healing. A personal may have a local leadership council internalized, or spiritual councils that represent outside people, such as an internal druidic council or group of ascended masters that help run things inside.
9. Sexual alters: created to handle the overwhelming trauma of early childhood sexual abuse, they took the feelings it was too painful for a young child to understand. Some had to learn to enjoy the abuse, or pretend to, and were heavily rewarded for this response.
10. Amnesic alters: these are known as the “front”, the “clueless ones”, “those who don’t know anything”, etc. These have the job of not remembering. Otherwise, as a child, they were heavily punished. Usually, they are very glad to not remember anything, and the other parts who were abused at times envy them or dislike their “protected life history.” This can create a lot of intrasystem hostility or warfare, until the amnesic parts begin accepting that abuse did occur. Reminding abused parts that the amnesia saved the child’s (and their life) helped my system with this.
11. The workers: these do the jobs of daily life, and usually are part of the presenting systems. These take care of the house, got married, take care of the children, and may hold a highly responsible job as well. These are the competent parts created that hide the fact that the person has undergone a lifetime of traumatic abuse and degradation. These parts can also be a great strength, as they share that life can be good with other more traumatized parts inside.
12. Hosts: there may be a “day host” (see presenters), a “night host” for the cult, or hosts for various systems or times in the person’s life. Occasionally, the survivor of severe generational cult abuse may find to their dismay that a greater portion of their life was invested in and given to cult activities than day ones, and the “night host” is stronger than the “day host”! This happened to me. Fortunately, my “night host” was the one who left the cult, so she had plenty of strength and pull to give to staying safe and away from the group. I also had a “host” that had handled the summers spent in Europe, during those times in childhood, and a “hidden host” who never fully presented to protect herself from others (she manipulated the presenters to sit in front of her, telling them what to do). Each person’s system will handle this task differently. In general, the greater the trauma, the greater the distrust of outside people, and the more likely that the host will be a facade, or heavily protected.
13. Core splits: can be created from severe and psychologically threatening very early childhood trauma. This used to be done intentionally by some cult groups to create larger and more dissociated systems.
14. The core: this is the original child, the one who created all of the others inside. The child’s systems will depend upon the traumas and the creativity of the original child, as well as her need to protect herself from the abuse of others that might have destroyed her. In some systems, the core will be very young, or an infant, if the abuse was extremely early and severe. Core issues surrounding her will usually involve parents or parental figures who caused severe trauma. This might include abandonment, torture, or other forms of cruelty to a young child.
15. Function codes, access codes, halt codes, system codes: these are fragments that might be put in to do certain jobs, and are created to only do that job when called out by triggers such as letters, numbers, phrases, or other auditory stimuli. These are created with deep trauma and are very intentionally done by perpetrators.
16. Spiritual parts: these may have a variety of beliefs that cover different spiritualities internally. There may be one over-riding spiritual belief for the system, or several. For example, a spiritual system created by the cult may include aspects of Luciferianism, druidism, Temple of Set teachings, Ancient Babylonian mystery religions, etc. The host or presenters may have a completely conflicting religious belief system, and there may be hostility between the parts that hold opposing beliefs. In my own life, my presenters were strong Christians, and this gave the stability and comfort needed to bring healing to the parts inside. It also opened the way to begin forgiveness, one of the most difficult and important tasks in the healing process.
This has been an overview of just a few of the types of personalities that might be found in a complex polyfragmented system. It is important to be aware that each person is unique; that many people will have coped with trauma in their own way. This is not meant to say that every cult survivor has all of these personalities, but are one survivor’s opinion based upon her experiences and memories. My hope is that this article will help to educate others about this issue.
copyright 2000 svali
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WER ANDERER FREIHEIT NICHT ZU ACHTEN UND ZU WÜNSCHEN UND ZU LIEBEN, ZU BRAUCHEN AUCH, vernünftig, SCHAFFT.. ist in sich selbst total gebrochen, UND KANN UNMÖGLICH natürliche – die immer freie sind — Wesen raumtreuen oder anders treuen.
ALS SELBST ABGRUNDTIEF UNFREI, wie alle diese Geheimhittler da…
das KANN nicht gehen.
UND IN UNFREIHEIT.. kann man nicht geeingtsein erleben..
DAS IST ALLES DERARTIGER HIRNKOKS.. ein Wahnsinn.
WENN DU IN DIESEN KREISEN BIST,
nicht aber deren Unnatur übernehmen kannst, also dich nicht so fühlst…
dann FINDE DEINEN WEG in deine eigene FReiheit in dir selbst.. DIE DU DARAN ERMESSEN KANNST, wie frei du über deine Peiniger ebenfalls sprechen kannst, DA WO SIE DEIN EIGENES LEBEN belangen, DENN ÜBER DEIN LEBEBN mußt du denken und reden, da so dein Esfühlen prüfen, können.
Du mußt dich selbst zurpückwohnen bis zu zurückerobern.
WILLST DU DU SEIN, dann ist dein Gesamtwesensraum DAFÜR DIE NATÜRLICHE, und auch die unabdingbare STÄTTE. Ist ja klar.
NIEMAND kann mir dir Freiheit leben, solange du sie IN DIR noch nicht erwirkt, wieder.. hast.
Man KANN das eigene Freisein nicht an andere anhängen.
Man KANN das eigene stete Wohlgefühl nicht von anderen abhängig leben wollen.
DU BIST IN DIR DEIN HAUSHERR. Und wenn du dich zumüllen und dir selbst verstellen läßt, DANN IST MIT DIR NICHTS ANZUFANGEN, denn WAS IN DIR ISt, wird __ wenn es nicht du selbst angehst!!!! ________- IMMER stärker sein als egal welche Liebe anderer zu dir.
DU WIRST IMMER auf die anderen knallen, da du UNTER DIR selbst unweigerlich zusammenbrechen wirst, IMMER UND IMMER WIEDER, denn DAS IST DIE DRESSUR.
Und da so viele so herumrennen.. mit oder ohne Muskeln alles hirnlos.. also Fehlfeldangedockte FRansen .. UND DAS FEHLFELD ist zusätzlich noch außert unserer Feinungswelten verankernd..
NUR DU kannst in dir aufräumen und ausräumen und dich wieder schwingend arbeiten.
UND GENAU DAS ist aktuell auch der Hauptjob aller,
die wirklich diesen Wesensrgesamtraumjob auch aufgenommen haben.
Man versteht es, oder man trant weiter dahin: in vermeintlichen Privilegien und so fort.
ICH BRAUCHE ECHT KEINE VORTEILE DARAUS, daß man mich vergewaltigt, seit ich ein Kleinstkind bin, seit Mengele der blendene Forscher sogar schon FÖTEN AUCH…
MENSCHEN sagen es offen..
und was machen die Depperln, ZWISCHEN IHREN SCHACHERERN, den Menschenhöndlern (diverser In-der-Tat_(also nicht unbedingt sofort ersichtlich) Rassenzugehörigkeiten), schliefen sie hochbegeistert noch handbussen…
Weiß ich mich Raum,
halte ich mich mit meinem Einssinn in natürllichem Austausch. UND DANN KANN mein Allgewahrendes die Dinge erleben, mir in meinem Menschlichen auch mitteilen, mit-teilen,
wie sie RAUMWAHR sind, und nicht einander Weltenballerln und Kulissenschiebereien vortranend. JENE TRIEFSCHIEBEN?
Ja!
MEINES ist das nicht.
Das heißt.. ich sehe deren, NUR HAT ES FÜR MICH DEN RAUMWAHREN STELLENWERT: die sind selbst gefangen, ich, meinetwegen, störe ihre Kreise nicht, aber FÜR MICH sehe ich ebenfalls klar: die Gefangenen SIND DIE. Und daß sie mich fangen wollen nur können.. ist deren einfaches, dummes und dumpfes Begegnungsunfähigksein. DAS IST DER FAKT. Wünsche ich das, kann ich mir noch überlegen, warum die so geworden sind.
Dazu kann kommen, die können auf geteilten Wesenebenen mich einnähen, meine freien Anteile aber können die niemals zwingen, da sie da nie hinkommen. WAS IHR FOLTERSÜCHTIGES nur noch lächerlicher macht.
Welten können rasen: SIE BLEIBEN BALLERLN, die nahezu zusammenhangslos einfach dahinprellen.
WIR ERLEBEN DIE ERDE!
Welten, also Geschehensballern, die sich Simple Minds darin basteln, SIND DAS, NICHT ABER WAHRES ECHTES RAUMERLEBEN.
UND GENAU DARUM haben wir auch die beiden Wörter: die Welt(en) und die Erde.
Das eine sind kurztaktige Wippiwuppischlupfiballerln.. DIE AUCH Streß machen…
die Erde hingegen ist ruhiges Wellen gewaltiger Weite und üppigsüßer Nähe ebenso, UND ALLES DARIN WAHR. Womit. man hier euch niemals zu b-haupten braucht. WAHR IST klargeschehend.
EINZIGER HAKEN: um solche Geschehensdichte auszuhalten, mußt du, als dein Gesamtgebilde DAS AUCH DRAUFHABEN. Was Jesuiten und sonstige Verstümmelte verstümmeln tun ist, sich Spielkameraden für ihre DUMPFHEIT zu verschaffen.
Erotischer wird’s nicht.
Denn das Eros der Wertschätzung
bringen die nicht zusammen,
NIEMALS,
denn dafür mußt du deinen Wesengesamtraum natürlich freischwingend tragen.
UND GENAU DAS foltern die einander ab.
HOCHINTELLIGENTE JESUITEN?
HEFTIGST entweder: oder.
DENN INTELLIGENZ.. messe ich an der Werdewebe, und die nur am Einanderklugheitenvorgackern, die sie um die Wette lernen, UND DIE ALLE DIE ERDE RUINIEREN.
Intelligenz, für mich.. ist Raumgärtnermeisterlichkeit.
UND DAS KANN NIEMALS MIT VERSTÜMMELN arbeiten.. UND ICH VERSTÜMMLE DIE WERDEGEWEBE, wenn ich GEGEN SIE nur meinen kleinen blöden Bluzer dahinonaniere.. BREEDER UNTER DROGEN ZEUGEN DIE!! In festgekettete Frauen.. wobei die BIRTHMOTHER.. aus der wirde dann das neue Jesuiterl herausgeschnitten und und und..
GEH BITTE, ja? UND WIE HIENICH die alle sind.. trallala:
an ihren Werken (hab das nur ich im Ohr??) ,
Früchten (LUT),
Taten (1. Johannes 2,1-6)
WIE SCHAUT DENN DIE ERDE AUS!!! Wie WIR!!!!? Leben WIR aus unseren brauchbaren, lebenstauglichen Uns- und einanderkennen und lernen, wahr?
NEIN!
UND DA WOLLT IHR IMMER NOCH MIT DIESEN UNFÄHIGEN HIRNDIHERZIRAMMELN, ja?
„Soyez simple.“
BITTE SEGGZZ IA NEED, WIE HIENICH DE OLE SANN!!!?
….Gott verstehen sie nicht. Den Menschen verstehen sie nicht. Das Leben verstehen sie nicht. Raum verstehen sie nicht. Lernenen können sie nicht. Ansprechbarkeit bringen sie keine zusammen. Werdefähig sind sie null, und müssen sich immer mitschleifen lassen. Familien können die nicht erleben und haben ihre FOLTERZENTRALEN ALS ERSATZLAGER.. und und und und.. WAS SOLLEN DENN DIE BITTE NOCH AUFFÜHREN, damit amal a End wiaad. WEIL WIR DIESE in geschützte Werkstätten stecken, anstatt deren Schergen uns. EINFACH WEIL WIR ZU ERDELEBEN VERSTEHEN. Und die das nie tun werden, denn sie haben dafür nicht die Wesensraumgegebenheiten, da sie einander ja von Anfang an ruinieren!!!!
Schales Geschwätz.. und ihr herzileinludelt euch an.
Tja.. da ist nichts zu machen.
Feigheit.. IST eine Religion!
DEES SANN DE PUPPALN, die IHR DA ANHIMMELT!
GESAMTTEXT UNTER: https://svalispeaks.wordpress.com/2008/09/19/transcript-svalis-interview-with-greg-szymanski/
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„But I was told, yes, I would do great things for Family one day. The reason why I can filter some of this with an objective view is that I know what my role in the group was. It was over quite a significant number of other people. So I don’t evaluate my role or specialness within the group so much by what I was told, but by what I did.
(regretful downturn in voice on “what I did”)
GS: So you reached the age of 12, and then you’re told by your parents you’re going to an induction ceremony in the Vatican.
SV: Yes.
GS: Can you tell us how that happened and what occurred at that ceremony when you went there?
SV: (deep breath, voice becomes stressed) Okay. Um, this isn’t easy to talk about, as you know.
When I was twelve, I was flown over to Germany. And I was at, I’ll call them the German Fathers’ house, over there. And, there was some preparation for a few days, beforehand, and I was told that there would be a very important ceremony. And it was considered a sealing ceremony at that point. And basically I was told a little bit about what I was expected to do during the ceremony.
When we got there, we went through the Vatican. Underneath the Vatican there is a large room that I described to you when we talked before. It has 13 catacomb chambers leading into it. And what they do is as you go down these steps into the room, you can see that it’s circular, so they’re all rounded. They bring out the mummies from the catacombs. And they set them beside each one [each of the 13 catacomb chambers], and they say “That’s the spirit of the Fathers watching over the ceremony.”
During the ceremony, there was a large table in the center of the room. It was on top of this huge golden pentagram. They had a ceremony there.
GS: So how many kids, how many other children were with you being inducted into the Family or the Order, as they call it?
SV: There were two other children at that point. But there were several adults too.
GS: Okay.
SV: See, the Church also brings in adults to swear their allegiance, too, just so you know. I was told, and I don’t know if this is true, that if you want to rise to a certain position within the Catholic Church hierarchy, you do have to go through that ceremony as well.
GS: Okay, so you’re down in this room. Your parents weren’t present.
SV: No. No. The German Father and the French Father were.
GS: Okay, and at that point tell our listeners what you witnessed.
SV: (pause, additional voice stress) Well, there was a table. It looked like dark glass in the center of the room. It was made out of a stone, but it was very shiny and darkened black. It may have been something like obsidian or onyx, I’m not sure. This was the only time I’ve seen stone like that.
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Around the corners it had these gold channels that, you know, collect fluids. A little boy was placed in the center of the table and drugged. I think he was drugged, because he was very quiet. He didn’t move or say anything.
GS: This was a little three or four-year-old boy, right?
SV: Yes. Yeah. Yeah.
GS: Then they continued to do a child sacrifice.
SV: Yes, they did. Yes. I told you about that before. Yeah.
GS: Now afterwards, quite, what an unbelievable experience for a youth, a 12-year-old. What went through your mind when that happened?
SV: I was terrified! I mean, I was absolutely horrified. I… I… I… I can’t describe the terror you feel when you go through something like that.
GS: And do you remember the words they were saying as this was going on?
SV: (pause) The man was in scarlet – he was speaking in Latin. And basically he was saying, “Please accept the sacrifice on this day.” And then he said, “This sacrifice will seal the ceremony.” And then he did it.
Again, I was so terrified that… (sighs) Have you ever been in a situation where your heart’s racing, but you can’t do anything? You’re just kind of sitting there, and you’re kind of fading in and out?
GS: Well, I can remember as a youth being frightened, but I don’t think I’ve ever…
SV: (crosstalk) No. All right.
GS:… had anything quite like what you’ve had.
SV: Imagine your heart rate going up to about 220. You can’t move. You’re kind of shaking, but you’re trying not to show it.
GS: Mm hm.
SV: It was horrible. Actually, I keep thinking inside, “I can’t wait ’till it’s over. I can’t wait.” You don’t say this, but inside you’re just saying over and over, “I can’t wait ’till this is over. I can’t wait ’till this is over. I can’t wait ’till it’s over.”
GS: Mm hm.
SV: Afterwards, the man in scarlet, he had a huge golden ring on his hand. He came over to the center of the room. Each of the people that were swearing that day had to go forward and kneel before him and kiss his ring, and swear my allegiance to the New Order, to the New World Order for all… until my death.
GS: Hm. Now at that point you were escorted out.
SV: Yes. Yeah. After the ceremony was all over. I mean, the other people also did theirs as well. They had to swear their allegiance too.
GS: And they were the same age as you?
SV: The two children were, but there were also three adults that went forward and did the same. And afterwards, we were told, (slowly and precisely): “May the same to you or worse occur should you ever break this oath.”
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DAS sind Päpste, garantiert die Schweizer Garde __ was wird aus denen dann körperalt.. die sind immer jung________?? DAS SIND ALL DIESE Rockerlbuberln.. die da Hohepriestergewandltrippeln!
WILL EINMAL IN DIE KÖPFE, daß das UNENDLUCH UNTER NATÜRLICHER GRADER MENSCHENSCHÖNHEIT sich plumpst dahinimitiert, und SUCHTVOLL einfach nur giert, WEIL ES ANDERES SCHON GAR NICHT MEHR KANN, weil sich die untereinander so hinmachen!!!!?
WILL das bitte einmal in die Köpfer, DAMIT IHR SEHR, was eure Augen und euer Wesengesamtraum EUCH SCHON BRÜLLT, weio ihr nur die zugenagelten Menschen depperln geben wollt, ANSTATT ZU SEHEN, was wie ist????
Ihr seid religiös?
IHR VERRATET MENSCH UND GOTT! So schaut’s aus!
Und ich scherze da restlos nicht, denn ich erleben Gebet als MenschenGRUNDRECHT.. aber ihr laßt da dahinknatterlügen EINE MOLOCHGOTTHEIT, die man Europa überpfannte! Die hier ELENDIGLICHES ZU WÜTEN „mithalf“.. UND IMMER NOCH.. trippel trippel Leichengenippel, gell.. Blödsein muß Suchtwert haben…
Trinkt mein Blut…

Wichtig iss, daß dea Flötist/Flötenschbüla need foisch blöösd.
Ich würde den Gedanken vorschlagen, daß JENE Wesen NICHT MEHR IN DER LAGEN SIND – das vor einander auch gar nicht sollen — ERDEWAHR zu empfinden und daraus erdewirig zu wollen. ES SOLLEN Hörige erzogen werden, DIE EINER MASTER MIND FOLGEN, die restlos krank ZUSAMMENGESAMMELT WIRD AUCH NICH. WORAUS FOLGT: diese Wesensraumruinen KÖNNEN GAR NICHT, was sie so gerne wollen, RAUM WAHR GESTALTEN, denn jede ECHTHANDLUNG ist WIRGEWEBEWAHR, UND DARAUS eigendazugestaltend auch nch. WAS DIE TUN: IHR MIT ZU KÜRZEN, um daraus allem Leben IHRE MINDERUNG EINZUPRÄGEN.. GEHT GEGEN DIE REGELN DES WERDENS, KANN ALSO NICHT FUNKTIONIEREN. Wir können das verstehen, JENE HABEN DAZU NICHT MEHR DIE MITTEL. Sie sind Suchtonareme, sie WOLLEN EINANDER AUCH SO.. sie sind ENTERDET! ENTWIRT! Sie sind nicht mehr werdefähig, UND KÖNNEN NUR MEHR Echtleben üparasitieren, WAS SIE EINANDER ALS HERRENSEIN UND HERRSCHEN vorhalluzinieren.
NUR WIR können die in irgendwelche Rahmen bringen, UND SIE IN DENEN HALTEN, damit sie nicht immer immer weiter alles hinmachTen.
Da wir uns nur handelnd werden lassen __ im Gegensatz zu diesen SO GEZÜCHTETEN VON IHNEN SELBER, Suchtkarkassen _________ wenn wir verstehen: HABEN WIR UNS DER MÜHE ZU UNTERZIEHEN, Verstehen zu suchen, anstatt nur lieb sein zu wollen.
AKTUELL LEISTEN GEFOLTERTE UND GEMORDETE KLEINKINDER die ABPUFFERUNG unseres Liebseins im
restlos verkehrten…
Herrn.
WENN du das NICHT gut findest, DANN mußt du WEGE finden, wo das dich auch berührt, DEINES WAHR ZU SAGEN, genau da auch, wo diese Kraxn dein Leben mitverunstalten! IN UNS SELBST.. müssen wir die Hasherrenpflichten wahrnehmen, sonst bedinene sich diese Fehlwesen, ANSTATT DASS WIR DEM LEBEN DIENEN (können).
Wenn du dich und das Leben ernstnimmst, KANNST DU DICH nicht von diesen Fehlwesenmassen ZUGEMÜLLT belassen! ENTWEDER ODER.
Und lernst du IN DIR damit umzugehen, DANN lehrt dich das auch, UM DICH HERUM.. wahr zu leben. Und dann geht es langsam bergauf.. ES GIBT NUR DIESEN WEG. Denn nur dieser baut dich um, also du dich.. UND NUR SO begegnest du wieder einen umfassend immerwahren Strukturenweiten. UND AB DA.. können die Klakkerer klakkern, sie sind dir das. RAUMWEBWAHR.. restlos daneben. WEIL DU DAS ANDERE KENNST, das die NICHT kennen können, denn sie gewahren es gar nicht, können es also nicht einmal denken. Hörigkeit… schlagen wir kurz nach:
Hörigkeit ist allemal ein Zustand innerer Entehrung.
hören · Hörer · hörig · Hörigkeit · aufhören · erhören · unerhört · Gehör · verhören · Verhör · Hörensagen
hören Vb. ‘mit dem Ohr wahrnehmen, vernehmen’,
ahd. hōren (8. Jh.),
mhd. hœren,
asächs. hōrian,
mnd. hȫren,
mnl. hōren,
nl. horen,
aengl. (
angl.)
hēran, (
westsächs.)
hīeran,
engl. to hear,
anord.heyra,
schwed. höra,
got. hausjan. Das zu erschließende
germ. jan-Verb für unwillkürliches Wahrnehmen mit dem Ohr, das später auch Bedeutungen wie ‘absichtlich vernehmen’ und weiter ‘gehorchen’ annimmt (vgl.
wer nicht hören will, muß fühlen und s.
gehorsam), führt mit
russ.(landschaftlich)
čúchat’ (
чухать) ‘wahrnehmen, riechen, schmecken’ und wohl auch mit (nicht eindeutig geklärtem)
griech. akū́ein (
ἀκούειν) ‘hören, gehorchen’ auf
ie. *keus-,
*kūs-, eine s-Erweiterung der Wurzel
ie. *kē̌u- ‘worauf achten, beobachten, schauen’, auch ‘hören, fühlen, merken’, wozu (mit anlautendem s-)
schauen und
schön (s. d.) sowie auch
aind. kavíḥ ‘klug, weise, Seher, Weiser, Dichter’,
griech. koé͞in (
κοεῖν) ‘bemerken, vernehmen, hören’,
lat. cavēre ‘sich in acht nehmen, sich vorsehen’,
lett. kavēt ‘zaudern, zögern’,
aslaw. čuti ‘empfinden, erkennen’,
russ. (älter)
čut’ (
чуть) ‘empfinden, fühlen, wittern, wahrnehmen’ gehören.
– Hörer m. ‘Zuhörer’,
mhd. hœrære,
hœrer.
– hörig Adj. ‘sich dem Willen eines anderen unterwerfend, triebhaft, sexuell abhängig’, älter (zuerst mnd., 14. Jh.) ‘abhängig vom Feudalherrn, an die Scholle gebunden, unfrei’, mhd. hœrec ‘auf einen anderen hörend, folgsam’, mnd. hȫrich ‘gehorsam, ergeben, zugehörig, an die Scholle gebunden’; dazu
– Hörigkeit f. (18. Jh.), mnd. hȫrichēt.
– aufhören Vb. ‘ablassen, nicht länger andauern, aufmerksam hinhören (aus aktuellem Anlaß)’,
mhd. ūfhœren ‘ab-, unterlassen’.
– erhören Vb. ‘anhörend erfüllen, Erbetenes gewähren’,
ahd. irhōren ‘hören’ (11. Jh.),
mhd. erhœren ‘hören, hörend wahrnehmen, erfüllen’.
– unerhört Part. adj. ‘nicht erhört, nicht gebilligt, erstaunlich, empörend’,
spätmhd. unerhōrt, eigentlich ‘nie gehört, beispiellos’.
– Gehör n. ‘das Hören, Hörsinn’,
mhd. gehœre; vgl. häufigeres
mhd. gehœrde,
ahd. gihōrida (9. Jh.).
– verhören Vb. ‘eingehend befragen und anhören’,
mhd. verhœren ‘hören, anhören, vernehmen, prüfen, erhören, überhören’, auch
etw., sich verhören‘falsch hören’ (17. Jh.);
– Verhör n. ‘eindringliche Befragung’,
spätmhd. verhœr(e).
Hörensagen n.heute meist in der präpositionalen Fügung
vom
– Hörensagen (älter auch auf, durchs Hörensagen) ‘aus Erzählungen anderer’, mhd. hœrsagen (14. Jh.), frühnhd. hör(en)sagen.
DEREN Unsüberbratreligion vom Hörensagen.. aus Baal-Landien.. geht’s Leute! WANN BETMA WIEDER EHRLICH???
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